Pain

By Frater Valak

Fear the unknown!
Panic in thy torture!
Break away!
Break away!
Terror strikes the heart!
Too good to be true!
Run away!
Run away!
His love mocks my confusion!
Unconditional ridicule!
Get away!
Get away!
Torn in the cyclone of uncertainty!
Pain courses through my body!
Turn away!
Turn away!
Writhing in this agony!
The torment I cause haunts me!
Who am I?
What do I want?
This hell I've created around me!
It swallows me up!
Is there an escape?
Where can I turn?
Her Universe threatens to collapse!
She searches the remnants of Self!
Where is she going?
Where has she been?
Nowhere to go but in!
She must find the answer!
What is sorrow?
What causes this pain?
I feel sick with loss!
But the pain is greater in his eyes!
He loves me, I know!
Doubt.
To Hell with doubt!
I must fight this guilt!
He waits for me --- Hopes!
Doubt.
Doubt is the excuse to stop looking for an answer!
Doubt paralyses ability to act!
Analysis the solution!
I must act!
Discover the source of this pain!
What is your fear?
Sacrifice not what you hold dearest!
Could you live with that loss?
Express your concerns!
Express your desires!
Let your fear pass over you!
When it's gone, only you remain!
Embrace your Self and unite with it!
Understand who you are!
Follow thine Heart!
Love!